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I feel that I haven't accomplished anything yet...

:'-(

the only thing I've been thinking lately is
I've been losing lots of things

I guess I'm just not well prepared for the real world

Isn't it pathetic?

But anyway... life is just too subtle
no one could be fully prepared for it

kalo boleh sedikit curhat

setelah badan ditusuk-tusuk oleh jarum gede-gede

darah disedot-sedot bak korban drakula

muntah-muntah di kosan

pil-pil aneh yang bikin lemes dan teler ditelen-telen tanpa jam yang pasti

bedrest di rumah hampir seminggu penuh

ternyata selalu ada hikmahnya

waktu istirahat total bikin gue banyak mikir tentang apa lagi hal berikut yang perlu gue lakonin... dan gue sadar gue berada dalam satu titik bahwa gue udah capek, muak, eneg, bete, berada pada satu titik yang terlalu lama.

mungkin gue terlalu banyak memaksakan ini dan itu di sini dan di situ.

semua ini demi kemapanan semu.

nyicil apartemen yang buntutnya bikin gue ngutang ratusan juta lah...

kerja gila-gilaan yang bikin gue  semakin jadi pengajar yang nggak profesional lah...

band mandeg di produksi album kedua yg gak kelar-kelar (gara-gara satu dan banyak hal!)

nulis semakin jarang...

nyanyi semakin jarang...

baca buku semakin jarang...

bergaul semakin jarang...

denger musik jarang...

nonton acara musik jarang...

ngobrol pun jarang...

lalu gue menghitung berapa banyak temen baru yang berhasil gue dapetin tahun ini? ternyata hanya bisa dihitung pake jari

terus gue ngitung lagi, berapa banyak temen-temen lama yang mulai lost contact? ternyata ngitungnya harus pake kalkulator tukang sayur...

ampun deh.. gue gak boleh berada di titik ini terlalu lama... atau gue akan semakin mandul dan bodoh...

gue harus buru-buru sekolah lagi. atau bikin karya lagi. atau perform di atas panggung lagi, entah dengan band, teater, ato sekedar ngamen pake krecekan... gue harus terus baca buku dan menyelesaikan Oryx and the Crake, The Satanic Verses, Ecotopia, The Left Hand of Darkness, dan semua buku-buku lain yang nganggur begitu aja di rak buku gue...

Gue harus denger album terbaru Dresden Dolls, single terkini Bjork, huntungan-huntingan downloadan mp3 dr band-band yg namanya gak pernah kedengaeran tapi musiknya gila-gilaan...

ah iya, gue harus mulai mencari lagi gambar-gambar yang suatu saat akan jadi tato di badan gue, hihihi...

Oh lord, thank God I teach. 

The only thing that reminds me of how amazing the world is and how it is waiting to be discovered by us is when I look at my students' faces and see right through their liberated souls...

money is illusion. dreams are real.

rgds,

thera

gimana sih?? ini apa??? *asal pencet di MP baru...* aku mau yg status quo!!!! :'-(

On Manohara and all the drama...

Thank God that Manohara successfully went home from her evil husband. A genious decision to catch people's attention on the hotel's elevator. You go girl...

One thing kept me wondering though... Why does she and her mother kept boosting their publicity in the media when there's one very important thing to do when you are physically and sexually abused: visum dokter.

If it is true that she has been injected with tranquilizer against her will, there should be forensic evidences that can support her case. However, one should investigate it immediately, or else, it'll just gone, just like cuts and bruises, our body can heal itself.

But it seems that publicity is more important for them. What a stupid decision. No wonder Ratna Sarumpaet refuses to help. I saw her on Metro TV today, stating that Manohara's mother couldn't give enough evidence.


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JAKARTA - Sejak menjejakkan kaki di Tanah Air pada 31 Mei 2009, Manohara Odelia Pinot tenar bak artis. Dia wara-wiri ke banyak stasiun tv untuk wawancara. Keasyikan tampil di tv, Manohara tunda visum.

Seperti yang tampak pada Selasa (2/6/2009) siang. Mano dan ibunda, Daisy Fajarina, tampil di Indosiar, Jalan Damai No 11, Daan Mogot, Jakarta Barat. Usai tampil, Mano dicecar pewarta yang penasaran menanti kapan visum akan dilakukan.

"Besok, besok. Tempatnya di mana, belum tahu. Kita lihat saja nanti," kata Daisy sambil menjauhi kerumunan pewarta. Dengan dikawal Laskar Merah Putih, Daisy dan Mano digiring naik ke mobil KIA Karnival dan berlalu.

Pada Senin, 1 Juni 2009, seharusnya Mano melakukan visum di Rumah Sakit Pondok Indah, Jakarta Selatan. Namun, itu batal karena Mano dan Daisy memenuhi undangan on air di ARH-Global Radio di Menara Kebon Sirih, Jakarta Pusat, dan disambung kunjungan ke studio Global TV di Gedung Ariobimo Sentral, Kuningan, Jakarta Selatan. Pada Senin sore harinya, Mano dan Daisy diwawancara secara langsung oleh program berita Reportase di Trans TV.

Sebenarnya, visum ini penting dilakukan untuk mengetahui benar tidaknya penganiayaan yang selama ini didengungkan Daisy dilakukan oleh suami Mano, Tengku Temenggong Muhammad Fakhry. Namun, visum malah tertunda terus. Mano dan Daisy asyik menikmati popularitas tampil di layar kaca.(ang) (uky)

Life Lessons

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Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written." My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more: 1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. 3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. 4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. 5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. 7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. 8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it. 9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. 10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. 11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. 12. It's OK to let your children see you cry. 13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. 15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. 16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. 17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. 18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. 19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. 21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. 22. Over prepare, then go with the flow. 23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. 24. The most important sex organ is the brain.   25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. 26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?' 27. Always choose life. 28. Forgive everyone everything. 29. What other people think of you is none of your business. 30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time. 31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. 33. Believe in miracles. 34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do. 35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young. 37. Your children get only one childhood. 38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. 39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. 40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back. 41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. 42. The best is yet to come. 43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 44. Yield. 45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."   Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves.

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There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved.

- George Sand -