SAYA BELOM MAO TIDUURRR!!!

Show me, show me, show meHow you do that trick"The one that makes me scream," she said"The one that makes me laugh," she saidAnd threw her arms around my neckShow me how you do itAnd I promise you, I promise thatI'll run away with youI'll run away with youSpinning on that dizzy edgeI kissed her face, I kissed her neckAnd dreamed of all the different waysI had to make her glow"Why are you so far away," she said"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you,That I'm in love with you?"You... soft and onlyYou... lost and lonelyYou... strange as angelsDancing in the deepest oceansTwisting in the water, you're just like a dreamJust like a dreamDaylight whipped me into shapeI must have been asleep for daysAnd moving lips to breathe her nameI open up my eyesI find myself alone, alone, aloneAbove a raging seaThat stole the only girl I lovedAnd drowned her deep inside of me.You... soft and onlyYou... lost and lonelyYou... just like heaven

Wadooohhhh.. ini lirik lagu apa hayoo....
Gila, gue bisa gila... kapan gue akan sadar *jitak diri* OY! SADAR JENG!!!!
Sadar... dia bukan buat gw...

Dunia Gila

Phew... such a tired day. Menemani nyokap memuaskan hasrat shoppingnya. Dr jam 3 sampe jam 7 tp tetep aja nyokap kurang puas. Busyet. Dr Jakarta School gw masi ada tugas lagi. Dan gw sama skali blom bikin apa2. Hm... kl penulisan kreatif diatur sedemikian rupa seperti ini kok jd ngga fun lg ya? Gw lebih suka disaat kita menulis dengan bebas, liar, tiada arah, tiada kontrol. Pasti hasilnya lebih gila. Dan kegilaan adalah hal yg bagus bukan? Bukankah kita semua hidup di dunia gila? Kita semua gila. Dan org yg PALING GILA adalah orang yg mengaku waras, karena tidak ada satu manusia pun di dunia yg normal. Semua pasti gila dengan caranya masing2. That's life. We life in a crazy world.

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind

Damn... Life's a bitch and then you die. Damn... Cume itu yg melintas di kepala gw saat ini. Cuma itu. Apalagi setelah gw liat kenyataan, kalo hal yg gw mimpiin itu ga akan pernah dateng, ga akan pernah kembali dalem hidup gw. Life can be sucks and so does love.

Dan pada akhirnya gw mengakhiri masa remaja.. *cuih!* Hix hix.. I'm in the early 20's rite now... I know that I should be happy, but what can I say? I have little faith in love rite now and that is the thing inside my head in my early 20's. How can I enjoy my life when I have this kind of stupid feeling?

Yasudah... yasudah.. I have no power to change it. All I can do is just waiting and waiting and waiting for grat things to happen. Damn. Kata orang hidup itu kaya roda; kadang di atas, kadang di bawah. Menurut gw sebenernya itu adalah salah satu filosofi hidup paling basi yg pernah ada, tp kl emang bener... mungkin hidup gw udah melewati masa 'diatas'nya dan kembali ke bawah lagi. Then my life is flat... Flat as a dirty roof does. Damn.

Satu2nya hal yg menghibur gw blakangan ini adalah movies... and the creative writing scholarship from gagasmedia of course. Satu film yg blom lama gw tonton adl "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind", yg main Jim Carey and Kate Winslet. Jim Carey lumayan jg, tp mungkin bakal lebih keren kalo yg meranin dia hmm.... Jude Law? (noo no no.. terlalu ganteng...) Yaudah.. Jim Carey was fine, I know! Ewan McGregor!!! Theeheehee. Ceritanya tentang seseorang yg pergi ke sebuah klinik untuk menghapus memorinya tentang mantan pacarnya, terus filmnya ngambil adegan keadaan di dalem otaknya dia, dia berusaha kabur dari tindakan para dokter yg menghapus memorinya (Reminds me of the novel 'Sophie's World', when Sophie ran out from the writer's mind). Damn.. indah bgt, THAT's such a movie I would remember for the rest of my life, pas bgt buat org yg abis putus cinta (like me.. thehehee). Akhirnya nonton sendiri aja yah biar endingnya di'rasa' sendiri. Yg pasti sih there are this line that keeps echoing inside my mind;

"You can erase someone from your memory, but erasing them from your heart is another story"

Untuk gw yg keadaannya sedang 'seperti ini' (ya.. u know lah...) that lines kinda help me... even though I relized I don't want just a memory, what I want is a love that will last (kaya lirik lagu...) Karena sebelom gw nonton film ini, dan ketika gw sedang kritis2nya, gw sempet berpikir; "If I could.. I would erase him from my memory. Maybe my life could be better". Sekarang gw sadar.. thanks to Jim Carey and Kate Winslet, maybe I could erase him from my memory as soon as possible, but from the heart? Only God can tell...