A Box of Chocolate?

Saatnya menulis blog. Karena kebetulan otak gw lagi dingin, ga panas seperti sebelom2nya. Jadi mungkin isinya bisa lebih dari sekedar luapan emosi ga jelas kaya kmaren.

I can't understand how I was easily fooled. But it really doesn't matter much now. Since I'd better focus on my final exam. Masih keburu rupanya untuk menyelamatkan nilai2 gue yang jatoh gara2 sempet ada makhluk brengsek nan manja yg suka bikin gw terpaksa bolos di pagi hari... Tapi ternyata semua blom terlambat, gw masih bisa ngejar nilai walopun pasti ga akan sefantastis semester sebelomnya. I still cant believe it... kalo semester ini gw lulus smua, brarti 19 sks lg gw uda jadi sarjana... waw... (mendadak jadi ga pengen cpet lulus)

Hhhhh*menghela nafas* life... (cieeee cuiiihhh) Jadi inget apa kata ka Iqbal...

"Life is not always a box of chocolate coz it's not always sweet"

huhuhu... jadi terharu ka' Iqbal... oh ya, salut buat anak2 teater sastra yg kmaren pementasannya sukses (horeee masuk koraaann!!). Slama 3 hari pementasan gw nonton tiga tiga nya sekaligus gladi resiknya (brarti 4 kalo dong...) tp gw selalu dibuat ketawa karena joke spontannya ga pernah sama! secara gw make up artist and jaga tiket juga... Huhuhu, daku tak bisa make up yang baik dan benar, untung ini make up lenong. senangnya bisa memoles muka orang setebel mungkin! hahaha!

Ah sudah-sudah... mulai ngelantur. Hmm.. boleh lah mulai masuk ke bagian emosional lagi...

Jadi bagaimana semua ini? Kalo sesuatu yang brengsek udah terlanjur terjadi, lo nggak mungkin balik ke belakang buat ngehentiin semuanya. Salah ga sih kalo gue pake kekerasan buat kasus yang satu ini? kalo harga diri gue udah diinjek2 sama satu orang, yang ingin lo lakukan hanya bikin muka tu orang itu bonyok. Gue ga bisa tinggal diem aja, karena nanti orang itu akan melakukan hal yang sama ke orang lain dan ke diri gue. orang itu cuma akan malingin muka tanpa dosa. Fuck! Gue bingung sama orang2 kaya gini. Kok bisa sih melakukan hal seperti itu tanpa perasaan bersalah sedikitpun. Kalo uda kaya gini jadi inget Nosa. Nosa cerita... banyak kesempatan buat dia untuk ngejahatin cewe, karena cewenya juga uda mao aja dijaha2in. tapi dia ga pernah tega. Mungkin karena banyak maen dan bergaul ama cewe. Ato karena ideologi yang ada di otaknya adalah humanism, and feminism juga udah kecantol di otaknya dia. Mungkin. Gue percaya semua orang pasti punya nurani yang bisa bicara buat dirinya sendiri. kalo si brengsek itu sih ga akan mungkin... Puh! *pengen nonjok*

Dear God, gue janji pasti akan maafin si brengsek itu... tp maafin gw kalo sebelomnya gw pengen banget nonjok mukanya... piss...

Now let's sing our song... "Die Die baby Die!"

Pathetic!

Badan banci
Muke kulkas

...eh kebalik...

Muka banci
Badan kulkas

tetep di *******in juga kan ama elo...
Sama p**** aja lo mao...

All those lies... All that act...
You're so pathetic!

At least biarpun badan kulkas and muka banci,
We dont have to tell lies in order to attract boys
We just be ourself
And there comes love

A lot of people said that this 'banci' face is a damn beauty, you know... and haven't you heard that 'Big is beautiful'? or u simply thinks that you're much better than us? Ha! Look who's talking! Haven't u got any mirror?!?!?!

You're just pathetic...

Beware of Liars!

Beware of liars
They're everywhere
Sometimes they lie about things you couldn't imagine
and simply you believe it...

Beware of liars!

Flower in The Sun - Janis Joplin

Now please don't you think baby

that I'm on the road to crime, yeah

You loved me, too,

So how come you just sit there

and laugh And laugh and laugh and laugh?

Things just happen this way

And not for very long

No no no no no no no no no no no no no no

Our love affair till it's just history, yes it is

And I attempted to love you in my own way,

I think that you know I did

But to have you here, to see you leaving,

Oh so near to me, yeah, yeah, yeah

Oh but you're long distance and so it's still

And so often people are glad to be old, yeah yeah,

Our love affair is just history, yes it is

Once in a green time a flower

Oh, fell in love with the sun

Their passion lasted for an hour

And then she wilted, come on, lover!

Did I see you looking

up at the sky? Up high, yeah

You wanna get there is, whoa another day

Now how can it be, how can it be?

Well, I said and I asked you, why all this?

I just got to know know know know know know know

Our love affair is just a history

But baby, baby, I said it's over, child,

I can't stand it any long-long-longer,

You left me too lonely.
It's over baby, Where were you when I wanted ya,

I needed ya right by my side?

I said-a, baby, baby, don't you feel me moving,

Baby, don't you hear me crying?

I know I hurt you, but Lord don't you know I cried,

I know I hurt you, but babe don't you know I tried,

Oh baby, oh babe, whoa

I dont know guys... I don't know what to do. This is not the right song for me to sing. I feel so bad when singing this song even though I really really looovveeee this song. Damn... life has been a mock for me lately! I'm on the road to crime, so does he... But I'm about to let it slipped through my sleeves. The affair is just history...

Your Lies

You can take me to the tallest bulding
You can take me to the top of the mountain
You can take me to the limit of the sky
With your most beautiful chain of words

Called lies...

So look what you've done to me, it's effect are destructive and permanent, and unbearable. But still, this is what life is all about. Sometimes you have to taste the scarlet blood running over your vain to know that you're alive. Sometimes you have to feel the deepest pain beneath your skin and inside your heart to be stronger. be strong. This is you, Thera.

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"I have a statement to make"
"What is it?"
"I think I love you or something"
"No. Don't"
"It has no reasoning, and beyond my control"
"I need to get a sleep"
"Okay have a nice sleep then"

There goes our friendship...