the truth

let me just say this
just for you to know
it hurts knowing the fact that i hope the least
i'd prefer not knowing the truth at all
when it's actually best to know
the unbearable truthful pain of the truth

thank you for keeping everything fair and square with me
now go chase your desired smile
it's not mine. it's not me
my smile has long gone within every immature heartache
it grew up into a vicious predator
a flesh-eating carnivore smile
the last thing you would kiss
and the last thing you would embrace into your deep sleep

look at me now
now this is the truth
my eyes are bursting into bloody tears
nevertheless...
can't you see that i'm truthfully smiling right now?