skinny thera

kok saya tidak pede dengan penampilan saya yhaaa?

kuruuuuss skali...
kaka dan ipar gw mau membiasakan ponakan gw si michelle buat manggil gw dengan nama "skinny auntie"... nyokap gw tiap hari mandang gw dengan tatapan pathetic dan bilang gw kurus kayak "biting". bokap gue bolak balik nyuruh gue makan... karena takut gw sakit... sangking kurusnya tubuh ini... er, tidak terhitung jumlah teman2 dekat yg sudah kenal gue bertahun2... semuanya pasti ngomong "gileee... kurus banget loe, ther! iihh...."

berat badan 40kg. tinggi 161cm. I look like an anorexic, bulimic, all those eating disorder freak.... It's not like I'm not trying to get fat! gue udah coba segalamacem dari mulai multivitamin, madu, penambah napsu makan, sampe susu weight gain... tp gak ngaruh!!!! Plg cuma nambah 1 atau 2 kilo trus yah begini lagi, pdhl udah keluar duit banyak!!! I wish to gain 5kg!!! that's all!!! how this can be sooo hard!!!

But I'm okay for the fact that i can't get fat, maybe it's just the way I am... I'm really comfortable with myself.

But it's different when the people u care about are those who're mocking you around... looking at me pathetically, worrying, and keep telling me how skinny I am... stop it! mercy, please! it feels like a punishment for me! just because I can't get fat!

I fell sooooo.... unsexy, unpretty, un...whatever, right now!