I will always be the virgin-prostitute, the perverse angel, the two-faced sinister and saintly woman. I suffered deeply from my own forwardness as a woman. As a man, I would have been glad to have what I desired. You are the man who is the axis of my world.He is angry at the amorality of women like myself. He himself practices all the disloyalties, all the treacheries, but the faithlessness of a woman hurts him. Life is not rational; it is just mad and full of pain. Do not seek the because - in love there is no because, no reason, no explanation, no solutions. You are a sexual angel, but you're an angel just the same. You are a narcissist. That is the raison d'etre of the journal. Journal writing is a disease. But it's all right. It's very interesting.

(Anais Nin, Henry and June)